Thereafter, Hagar referred to the LORD, who had spoken to her, as "the God who sees me," for she said, "I have seen the One who sees me!" Genesis 16:13 (NLT)
This Bible story starts off like an episode straight out of Young and the Restless. Sarai was not able to give her husband Abram any children. So she decides to give him her servant, Hagar, to have sexual relations with so that they could have a child through her.
I was almost angry with Sarai when I first read this because I thought, Wow you are giving your husband permission to make love to someone else. Now that's desperation.This is not going to end well.
But after further research I found that this was a custom back then for women that were unable to have children. I am no prophet but I still could predict this blowing up in Sarai's face because Sarai and Abram were already promised a child by God.
After Abram slept with Hagar she got pregnant and the Bible says that she began to have contempt for her mistress Sarai. Sarai immediately blamed Abram. How many times do we blame others instead of noticing that sometimes it is us?
She went to Abram about Hagar's behavior and he basically said it was her idea and Hagar was her servant so she should handle it. Sarai began being so mean to Hagar that eventually she ran away still pregnant with Abram's child.
I love the way God handles the whole situation. He goes to Hagar in the wilderness and asks her where she is coming from and where she is going. He lets her open up and tell Him all that had happened even though he already knew. I imagine her telling Him how unfair this was. She never asked for this. She was caught in the middle of a desperate situation between a wife and her husband without much of a say in the matter.
The Lord listened but then he asked Hagar to return to her mistress. In spite of how things started the Lord promised He was going to give Hagar a son, Ishmael, which means "God hears," and she would have more descendants that she could count.
Hagar was so amazed at God that she used another name to refer to the Lord. The Bible says she referred to the LORD, who had spoken to her, as "the God who sees me," for she said, "I have seen the One who sees me!
As I read this I realize that sometimes I blame others instead of looking at myself. Sometimes I won't wait on God and I act in desperation by trying to manipulate a plan for myself. Sometimes I get caught up in everyone else's expectations or sometimes I am caught up in my own. Sometimes I feel like nobody knows or seems to care how I feel, what I need or what's really going on with me. Sometimes it is not their fault because I often wear a mask to make it look like to the world that I am so strong and confident. Because now and days it's almost seen negatively if you are "emotional" even as a women.
But as I look at how God handled this situation I know that I can go to Him when I am feeling vulnerable or when the world's expectations overwhelm me. I don't have to feel desperate or try to manipulate things in my own favor. God sees me. He sees you. But the question is do we see Him as Hagar did?
God cares and he is listening. Not only that but He is the only one that can make a negative situation work out for our good regardless of our own mistakes or some else's mistakes. Sarai took matters into her own hands because she was having trouble waiting on God. Abram went along with Sarai's plan and he didn't help when things got out of hand and Hagar ran away.
This was a messy situation but God still showed them all great love by giving them everything that he had promised. Sarai and Abraham still received the son they wanted and Hagar's problem was solved as well.
Let's start being more deliberate in learning to trust God and try not to take matters into our own hands when He promises us something. God has allowed situations to come where I had no other choice but to trust Him because no one else could help me. All I had was Him and He delivered me or He gave me miraculous peace until the storm was over. One way or the other things always work out for my good. Now I choose to trust Him on my own more often. I am not always acting in desperation. Let's carry ourselves like we have someone that sees us, knows us and loves us anyway.
Thank you Father that you are a God who sees us. Thank you that you truly know us and you love us anyway. Thank you that you are there for us in a way that no one else can be. Help us to trust you more. Help us to hide your Word in our hearts for when we are tempted to act in desperation and take matters into our own hands. We love you Father. In Jesus Name, Amen
Do you have trouble trusting the Lord? Do you sometimes feel that no one sees all that you are going through? Are you sometimes tempted to act in desperation by taking matters into your own hands instead of waiting on God? Write in a journal a time when you acted against the will of God and how it turned out. Also write about a time when you waited and trusted God. In either situation record how things worked out for your good. How do you keep yourself from acting in desperation when difficult situation arise. Follow the conversation on Facebook.